Being an adult...
I know that I have talked about this before, but there are some issues going on in my life that have brought this feeling back. The past few days I have been wanting to go back to the age of being a kindergartener... seriously, when things where much more simpler than they are now. Think about it this way, you could still have nap time (well in some places), if you wanted something really badly you could try batting your eyes or giving a sad puppy dog face to try and get your way and in most cases it just might work. If you were trying to please people, it was certainly not as stressful as it now.
Why is it that even when you do your best, it can never be good enough for some people? And it is not always the people that you would expect that are expecting so much of you. I am a natural believer in the whole brith order theories, and if you don't know those you should look them up, I find them very interesting. So maybe it's the whole idea of being the oldest and feeling the need to prove myself and that I am a capable human being that can, along with my husband take care of my little family that has me so stressed out that I am sick. Seriously my doctor said that she thinks that I'm so stressed out that it's wearing my body down... i agreed but also brought up the valid point that I am working in a school (and we all know how many germs children have) and have a six and a half month old who limits my abilites to get a full nights sleep... but she's so cute that I don't mind!
I am trying my best to just forget the small things and focus on my little family (clinton, kenzie and myself) and not worry about anything else. But it's just so hard because I want to be able to talk with someone without having to defend things...I want to be able to be happy with everything that is going on around me...but sometimes people make it sooooo hard!!!! That's life I guess...and I guess that it's all part of being an adult. :( Maybe one day things will get better.
